Too many ideas?

I've always had a microscopically short attention span and it seems to be getting smaller as I get older. I get bored easily and repetitive tasks make me absolutely nuts. (This would be the main reason I was a horrible secretary.) Too much repetition makes me jumpy, grumpy and anxious. I have a physical reaction to watching factory workers on television do the same thing thousands of times a day. That's my personal idea of hel*.

If we are talking character flaws, mine is definately not following thru with things--especially repetitive tasks.

I've had a really really hard time focusing lately. I know that forgetfulness/lack of attention to details is one of the common symptoms of diabetes--one of the most annoying for sure. (Just one more reason to hate this disease.)

I tell you this because I need ways to overcome this or at least ways to maintain a higher degree of sanity. I write things down. My lists have lists. I set my phone alarm to remind me of things. I have Joal, who has never forgotten anything. I take pictures of things. All this, and still, things are slipping thru the cracks.

I can't focus on one scrapbook page at the time, so I have a heaping stack of half-finished pages. I lose things. Lots of things. I have, in the past three weeks, purchased the same bottle of silver glitter glue 3 times, because I have forgotten that I bought it already and where I put it. (Anyone need some silver glitter glue?)

I feel like I'm flapping in the wind creatively. I have lots of good ideas...inspiration abounds. I look at books and find things I want to do...then I forget what it was I wanted to do.

Focus. I just want to be able focus.

To make matters worse, I haven't had pictures printed in months and now I am completely overwhelmed by all the pictures on my hard drive that need to be printed. It seems like such a huge repetitve task...I can't even start.

This is how I feel today: